I guess I needed a reminder that things in life are cyclical. Our emotions come and go; happy, sad, joyful, frustrated, elated, angry, on and on. The past six months for me, on the whole, have been amazing. I’ve weathered some very big changes in my life with more grace and ease that I thought possible.
And as the seasons change, so does life. Leaves are dropping to the ground, revealing lichen and moss on tree branches and trunks. The rains have arrived, leaving a day or less each week to see the sun. The yard, which could use another mow, is perpetually wet now. The angle of the sun is lower, blocked more and more by the neighboring mountains and hundred foot trees.
And in less than 2 weeks the clocks will change, plunging us into darkness earlier and earlier in the evening. Where I live, at this time of year, we lose about 3 1/2 minutes of daylight per day.
The grind of school is becoming more routine. And Little Man, as always, is struggling with school.
I am finding that lately, I am struggling as well. My weight loss is at a standstill for now. Procrastination and overwhelm are once again my companions. I am functioning, but not really thriving. I do what I have to, but not much more than that. My project “to do” list is overwhelming my brain.
The world won’t end if I don’t get certain things in the yard done (like filling in an area that is all truck ruts and a big pit I let Little Man dig this summer- because I was going to have a bunch of dirt brought in and spread out). The world won’t end if I don’t deal with our gravel becoming more and more grass driveway. The world won’t end if I don’t landscape an area beside the house that you walk past when you enter and exit our house. The area that I cut down bushes in preparation for re-landscaping, that is now a huge patch of weeds. The world won’t end if I don’t take down the old, peeling wallpaper from our downstairs bathroom, and paint and put up a new border I bought months ago.
There are so many more things around here that really need to get done, but just thinking about them has me overwhelmed into inactivity.
I don’t know what brought this all about, but I know some things that are certainly not helping, like our weather.
I am going to try like crazy to get my butt out of this chair and get even one thing done today that I wanted to get done. Or maybe I’ll just call a girlfriend.