I Wasn’t Seeking Spirituality. It Found Me.

I was thinking, this morning, as I woke up to a dark and quiet house, that there have been times in my life when things have happened that have made a dramatic shift or change in my life.

I can look back and see turning points, forks in the road, and things that have been dropped in my lap. I see how with a dramatic change, my life can become tumultuous for a while, like a boat being tossed by an unexpected storm. And then, eventually, the winds and upset pass, leaving calm seas and perhaps a new normal in its wake.

These changes, even the good ones, are often uncomfortable because they upset the status quo that has become so comfortable and familiar. The time I met the man who would become my husband was one of these times. Becoming Reiki attuned was also one of these times. Deciding to go back to college as a full-time student to a school where I would not be able to be in the work force for 3 years, was also one of these turning points.

I have learned that we can plan our lives as much as we want, but we never know when the universe is going to drop something in our path that has the potential to very significantly change it.

The biggest unexpected surprise that crept up on me as much as it was dropped into my life, was Spirituality.  Let me tell you, there is no precursor for having spirituality enter your life. I did not grow up in a religious family. I have always had a mind that preferred logic and science to blind faith. But I had peeks and glimpses of it, perhaps setting me up for what was later to be put right into my face. I had a few incredible experiences in hypnosis sessions, including experiencing my highest self and being healed by an angel, before I even knew what a highest self even was.

And both of those experiences happened because I was trying to find a way to lose weight that would be permanent. By the time I decided to delve into hypnosis, I’d realized that dieting didn’t work for me. I would lose weight, only to gain it back and then some; over and over and over. I figured out that my emotional overeating was merely a symptom of some other dysfunction going on that I was using food (very unsuccessfully) to cope with.

The pursuit of weight loss led me to hypnosis, which, many years later would facilitate huge healing around my eating issues, and personal growth.

The pursuit of wanting to help my son led me to Reiki. Becoming Reiki attuned opened something in me that led to several synchronicities that blew me open spiritually like opening an over pressured bottle of champagne. I didn’t decide to seek Spirituality, it clubbed me over the head.

I can trace that moment back to a psychic reading I had from a very gifted woman. Knowing what I now know, it was planned for our paths to cross, and for her to remind me that I am a spiritual being; opening up, not a can of worms, but more like a beautiful glass jar of magic. She and I have been sisters in many lifetimes, and there is a bond between us that is hard to explain. We are connected.

The cool thing is that what I have been seeking is healing; healing from carrying extra pain, shame, and anger that had shown up as extra weight (as it does for so many people). But what came my way was unexpected, and has become so very much more. I have morphed into a spiritual being, creating amazing healing in my life.

I look for the meaning beneath or behind situations, feelings, and actions: both my own and that of others. Why? Because I’ve learned that we hide our truths there. And when our truths are brought out of darkness, we can shine light on them, examining them, feeling into them, and deciding if it’s time for a new truth to emerge.

In simple terms, our pain, suffering, and discomfort in life doesn’t have to be. We can change things. It’s just a matter of figuring out how. Where to look. Who to help us. Follow the bread crumbs by listening to what resonates with your heart. There are as many paths as there are people on the planet, and you will know if you’re on your path by the way it feels inside.

As 2014 has just come to a close and 2015 is now upon us, the universe recently brought me clarity to my life’s purpose. And this blog is a great platform for that purpose:  sharing my wisdom with people through connection on a deep and meaningful level, with the goal of inspiring others to help themselves – to facilitate their own healing. This is my New Year’s Resolution. That, and creating more magic in my own life.