I Wasn’t Seeking Spirituality. It Found Me.

I was thinking, this morning, as I woke up to a dark and quiet house, that there have been times in my life when things have happened that have made a dramatic shift or change in my life.

I can look back and see turning points, forks in the road, and things that have been dropped in my lap. I see how with a dramatic change, my life can become tumultuous for a while, like a boat being tossed by an unexpected storm. And then, eventually, the winds and upset pass, leaving calm seas and perhaps a new normal in its wake.

These changes, even the good ones, are often uncomfortable because they upset the status quo that has become so comfortable and familiar. The time I met the man who would become my husband was one of these times. Becoming Reiki attuned was also one of these times. Deciding to go back to college as a full-time student to a school where I would not be able to be in the work force for 3 years, was also one of these turning points.

I have learned that we can plan our lives as much as we want, but we never know when the universe is going to drop something in our path that has the potential to very significantly change it.

The biggest unexpected surprise that crept up on me as much as it was dropped into my life, was Spirituality.  Let me tell you, there is no precursor for having spirituality enter your life. I did not grow up in a religious family. I have always had a mind that preferred logic and science to blind faith. But I had peeks and glimpses of it, perhaps setting me up for what was later to be put right into my face. I had a few incredible experiences in hypnosis sessions, including experiencing my highest self and being healed by an angel, before I even knew what a highest self even was.

And both of those experiences happened because I was trying to find a way to lose weight that would be permanent. By the time I decided to delve into hypnosis, I’d realized that dieting didn’t work for me. I would lose weight, only to gain it back and then some; over and over and over. I figured out that my emotional overeating was merely a symptom of some other dysfunction going on that I was using food (very unsuccessfully) to cope with.

The pursuit of weight loss led me to hypnosis, which, many years later would facilitate huge healing around my eating issues, and personal growth.

The pursuit of wanting to help my son led me to Reiki. Becoming Reiki attuned opened something in me that led to several synchronicities that blew me open spiritually like opening an over pressured bottle of champagne. I didn’t decide to seek Spirituality, it clubbed me over the head.

I can trace that moment back to a psychic reading I had from a very gifted woman. Knowing what I now know, it was planned for our paths to cross, and for her to remind me that I am a spiritual being; opening up, not a can of worms, but more like a beautiful glass jar of magic. She and I have been sisters in many lifetimes, and there is a bond between us that is hard to explain. We are connected.

The cool thing is that what I have been seeking is healing; healing from carrying extra pain, shame, and anger that had shown up as extra weight (as it does for so many people). But what came my way was unexpected, and has become so very much more. I have morphed into a spiritual being, creating amazing healing in my life.

I look for the meaning beneath or behind situations, feelings, and actions: both my own and that of others. Why? Because I’ve learned that we hide our truths there. And when our truths are brought out of darkness, we can shine light on them, examining them, feeling into them, and deciding if it’s time for a new truth to emerge.

In simple terms, our pain, suffering, and discomfort in life doesn’t have to be. We can change things. It’s just a matter of figuring out how. Where to look. Who to help us. Follow the bread crumbs by listening to what resonates with your heart. There are as many paths as there are people on the planet, and you will know if you’re on your path by the way it feels inside.

As 2014 has just come to a close and 2015 is now upon us, the universe recently brought me clarity to my life’s purpose. And this blog is a great platform for that purpose:  sharing my wisdom with people through connection on a deep and meaningful level, with the goal of inspiring others to help themselves – to facilitate their own healing. This is my New Year’s Resolution. That, and creating more magic in my own life.

About mariner2mother

I'm a mother of a creative 20 year old son, a former merchant ship's deck officer, and a wife. To feed my creative side I take photos. I am also Reiki attuned and am a student of Energy Healing, having used several healing modalities to work on myself and my family. My most recent adventure has me navigating a very challenging Kundalini Awakening.
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10 Responses to I Wasn’t Seeking Spirituality. It Found Me.

  1. Hello, my friend!
    I’m so sorry for my long absence from your site. I think of you often and am so looking forward to hearing about your magical 2015. I don’t have your gift of inner awareness, but am looking forward to learning more about leveraging it through you.
    Happy New Year!!

    • So glad you came by! After healing from physical and emotional dis-eases last year, I’m marching onwards to do more. Growing and learning all the time. As for inner awareness, I think everyone has it, but might need a little help recognizing it. Think of it as your inner ding- that feeling when you know something is right for you, or not. As for my transformation, I have certainly not accomplished things on my own. I’ve had amazing help and guidance along the way from therapists, teachers, and several talented intuitives.

  2. I completely understand that feeling of having your spiritual side blown wide open with Reiki! The more I practice it, the more peaceful and attuned to things I become. It’s such an exciting journey.

    Coming to accept our inner pain and anger and sorrow is incredibly healing. I’ve read so many books this past year on that very subject (many on past lives, etc.) and I’ve come to realize all of us are more alike than different and it’s our job here in this life to learn and grow. Here’s to more “truth-seeking” this new year!

    • Yes! I’ve read a lot of books on past lives, afterlife, etc, too. I’ve even had a few past life regression hypnosis sessions. Very interesting and more than cool. I’m thinking about writing more about things like, here’s what it’s like to have a clairvoyant reading, or here’s what it’s like to do a clairvoyant reading. A teacher I’ve had several classes with can take absolutely anyone who is interested and teach them how to tap into their clairvoyance. It’s a fun tool to have and use.

  3. janonlife says:

    Such a beautiful post, and how very true – life just brings experiences to us when we are ready; it’s up to us how – or even if – we use them. It’s been wonderful to share your journey via the blog. I am looking forward to reading about some amazing further journeys in 2015. ❤

    • Thank you Jan. It’s been fun sharing with you! I think sometimes life drops things in our laps when we aren’t expecting them (and even when we are) to show us or to give us the opportunity to grow… or not. I have seen some people have lots of opportunities show up in their lives, only to turn them away time and time again. But that’s another story…

  4. You are on a powerful path of self-healing and awareness, Susan. I look forward to seeing what 2015 brings your way! All the best to you and those you love.

  5. Here’s wishing you a wonderful 2015, Susan. -Bob

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