January 1, 2016
Hi there! Happy New Year, Chick!! I decided that because time is an illusion, and it really doesn’t exist (except by virtue of our left brain), I wanted to write you a letter of encouragement for the year 2016: the year that is ending for me. And yet, hasn’t happened for you yet.
You, the eternal optimist, have had a very bumpy last four months of 2015, after a hellish first six months of 2015, and you’re certain the bumps have finally been smoothed out, paving the way for a much better 2016. You are ever so hopeful that 2016 is finally going to be the year that your son will be ok with school, and your worries there will wind down. Ha! Get ready for the rollercoaster of your life! (Sorry chick, the big fun hasn’t happened yet).
Get ready to be stretched and tested, challenged and pushed like you haven’t been in a very long time.
Spoiler: this will be
one of the most challenging years in a long time a year from fucking hell, and yet, you will make it through. You might have to belly crawl for a while, but you’ll get there. Another spoiler: the challenge will roll into 2017, but it won’t be new and scary anymore, and you’ll be able to deal with things there a little bit better.
You’ll go through very scary times with Little Man, and because you’ve learned a lot about life, yourself, and how to handle scary shit, you’ll reach out and all sorts of help will come. And not only that, but because you know what to do when your “human” side is freaking out, big-time, you’ll delve into more healing for both yourself and the kid.
I’ll let you know right now that when it comes to the kid and healing work, remember that he’s a teenager! He’s not into this sort of thing, and you’ll feel like you’re spinning your wheels a bit there, but hang on. Don’t get overstressed. You’ve got all the time in the world. And you’ll find a modality that fits him near the end of the year.
Got another spoiler that you won’t want to know about: you’ll have a health scare that will test your ability to trust yourself. You’ll feel a little schizophrenic when two different doctors whom you both trust, tell you diametrically opposite ways to deal with the problem. And you’ll decide which way to go. Hint: the quick and easy way out isn’t the way. But taking the road less travelled will sit well in your heart, so that’s the way you’ll go. And in taking that road, you’ll learn even more about yourself and about the creation and healing of disease in your body.
Be prepared to make some big changes for your inner self this year. With a lot of challenge and pain, will come a lot of healing work and results. Must I remind you that you totally rock at digging up stuff that doesn’t need to be with you anymore, and tossing it off the back of the ship? Do I really have to show you how far you’ve already come? Well, take how much you’ve healed in the past three years, and that’s how much you’ll advance in just the year 2016. Yup. It’s gonna suck, big-time. And it’s going to be so absolutely amazing.
So, my dear Susan, as you are on the precipice of 2017, your eternal optimism firmly in place, you are a very different person than you were a year ago, and with a few things still in flux, still not ironed out, you’re making it through one step at a time. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming…
Know that Little Man will be ok and will continue to progress (even when you’re not sure, are scared, and crying), and that your health will continue to improve, especially because in order for it to keep getting better, you’ll need to take great care of yourself. Self-care won’t be an option, it will be a must. And you’ll figure that out too. (Yes, that one will test you with some great pain, but you’ll get there).
You not only have a huge toolbox these days, you’re reaching in and using the tool you need, as you need it. And you’re realizing the incredible importance of the tool of self-love, and love in general.
As you know, life is change, and sometimes change isn’t fun or pleasant. And even though as a kid you were really scared of change, you’re totally rocking it now (at least, with most things – it’s a process). You’ll even learn to become excited by change instead of fearing it. It’s gonna be a helluva year, and by year’s end you will barely recognize yourself.
I send you all of my good wishes, my thoughts, love, and encouragement for your upcoming year, and the year after: 2017. May 2017 bring more fun adventures, with as much grace and ease as possible, and peace.
All my love,
Your future Self