Life In Balance

Doesn’t life feel better when things are in balance?

When there isn’t too much of any one thing; enough productivity to feel good, and enough down time to relax and recharge.

Yessireebob!

Then why is so much of life so NOT in balance? WTF?? Seriously?

This word, balance. This concept of something that seems elusive at times. Where does it go? I looked under my sofa the other day and all I came up with were dust bunnies and stray Lego pieces. And a stale cracker. And a pen. Ok. There was a lot of dusty, dirty stuff under there, but no balance.

I think balance is one of those things that likes to laugh at us while it’s jumping through an open window, bounding down the back yard into freedom and oblivion.

It’s something I’ve glimpsed from time to time, like that perfect sunset or moment of clarity. That thing that distracts me long enough that I relax and unwind, until the moment passes.

Over the past several months, any sort of balance in my life has been as gone as my teenage figure. So gone.

But unlike my teenage figure, I know that one day, balance will return. Like the prodigal son, it will re-enter my life.

What’s funny is, from the outside, not too many people can tell. Because, like so much of life, it’s an inside job.

From the outside, not too many people can see that my life over the past several months has been a time of extreme pressure and extreme change. It’s been a time of emotionality and exhaustion. And a time of watching my perspective of life change from the inside out, bit by bit.

It’s been a surreal time, a beyond challenging time, an indescribable time, and most assuredly, a time of little to no balance.

But the coolest thing of all is, in time (don’t ask me when), my mind and body will settle into a new normal, and balance will probably be my new best friend.

Have you ever thought about what a caterpillar goes through to become a butterfly? The fact that their entire bodies completely change structure, and they end up being able to fly? This Kundalini awakening process I’ve been going through over the past several months is similar.

But instead of my entire life shutting down, body being wrapped in a cocoon, and completely structurally changing, most of my life has continued on, with my cocoon being my home, immediate family and closest friends. And instead of my structure completely changing, what’s changing the most is my consciousness: my perspective of how I see the world and how I feel about life in general and each interaction throughout my day.

One thing’s for sure, when Kundalini energy is working its magic full-on, it’s the energy healing of all energy healings. It’s energy healing to the max and beyond. Extreme to the extreme. No balance or ease for months on end.

One thing I know for sure, is that as much as my life has felt anything but in balance for a long time, it will return.

Balance always returns. It comes back, slinking through the side door, whimpering. Or it throws the front door open, bunch of colorful balloons in hand. At some point, we welcome balance again, and life feels a bit more like a party.