I just got my first Christmas card of the season. It’s that time again, and I’ve yet to put together our card for the year or even decide what it will be. Usually, our card is a collage of photos from the year, or one photo, often creatively made using Photoshop. Like the year I took a photo of a train ornament hanging on our Christmas tree, and digitally made Little Man the engineer in the cab. That was fun.
Putting together our Christmas card is usually something I enjoy, going through photos from the year, winding down memory lane. But because this past year has been one of the most challenging years in my adult life (and still is), I find myself in a bit of a quandary.
I don’t really feel like sending out a Christmas card this year. I’m not in the mood, not in the spirit, and am chronically exhausted, both mentally and physically. Just thinking about everything it takes to get our cards out, from creating them, to having them printed, driving to pick them up, addressing and stamping the envelopes, and taking them to the post office, leaves me almost wiped out.
So many Christmas cards show off a handsome family, and boast of the kids’ accomplishments. The card I got today included a letter filled with the year’s adventures and accomplishments, with my friend’s college aged son mulling over the possibility of going to law school like his mother.
Honestly, when I read about my friends’ kids going to college or graduating from college, getting married or having a baby, I’m jealous. And I know I shouldn’t be, because as much as I’m still in the trenches of the teen years and most of my peers started their families about ten years before me, I’m glad (most days) that I waited until I was ready. I also get jealous because my friends’ kids are able to go to school, whereas I had to pull my son out of school. Homeschooling a teenager who has learning issues, attention issues, and anxiety that is set off by academia, is not an easy road.
I’m definitely not writing a Christmas note or letter this year.
Perhaps this year’s card will be a few of Little Man’s aerial photos. He’s got some stunners.
Accompanied by a short and sweet sentiment.
Wishing you peace and prosperity in 2018.