Time To Tack

We all sail through this journey of life, holding fast to the tiller, sometimes steering with all our might, and sometimes letting the wind and current move us where they will. We head out to sea, looking for grand adventures, tacking and jibing around objects, raising and lowering the sails. Coming in to port during storms, and occasionally needing to ride them out at sea.

Sailing isn’t a world of moving from point A to point B in a straight line. And neither is life. It’s a journey including several changes in course, and course corrections as necessary. And within each voyage, there are obstacles, both seen and unseen. Rocks and shifting sands, sometimes above the water where we can see them, and sometimes below. Much of the time, we pass by or over them with grace and ease. And then there are the times we’re blown off course, or an aid to navigation has failed and we end up on the rocks.

A little over two years ago, the voyage of my son’s education ended up on the rocks. I had to make some hard decisions, and as much as I thought at the time that all would soon be well after a period of adjustment, all was not well.

Since then, we’ve been tacking back and forth, floundering a bit, and trying different sails. We’re still trying to find a better fit.

I took my son out of school because after years of pushing him to go, dealing with anxiety and misery, he’d reached his point of no return. Since then, we’ve been working with a tiny private school that guides students through their own independent and individualized education. My son is basically homeschooled, but with some specific guidelines in order to fulfill our state’s graduation requirements. We’ve created a curriculum that’s a mishmash of prepackaged courses and courses we create with the help of his teacher.

Going this route has taken a ton of pressure off both me and my son, and I thought it would mean the end of one horrific storm of misery.

What it did was shine a spotlight on one area in particular that’s become a blockade. My son’s mental health. By the end of last fall, after trying a variety of things over the previous year and then some, it became glaringly obvious that my son has very real issues with anxiety and panic attacks. In December I gave him two options to help create change, and he chose working with my very talented hypnotherapist, who is also a mental health counselor. (The other choice was medication).

That tack took my son into uncharted waters, and any time he’s thrust into uncharted waters, his nemesis, anxiety, shows up. As difficult as it was, he went to several sessions. And he was even able to have short experiences of hypnosis during a few of them. But after over three months of weekly visits, trying as hard as he could, I realized that my son’s brain needs more help. Panic attacks are no joke.

So, it’s time for another tack. One I’ve been putting off until I tried every other intervention I could. Time to try medication. Because my mother was bipolar and her mother had mental health issues that were never diagnosed, there is a family propensity for mental health challenges. I, myself have had my struggles at different times in my life, and I have a niece and a nephew who benefit from medication, so the familial connection is most assuredly there. In my case, energy healing has made all the difference.

My hope is that with the right medication, my son will have the chemical support for his brain such that he might be able to work with my hypnotherapist again, without succumbing to his nemesis, panic. She has several great tools that could help him change his life.

For now, we sail on our present course, waiting for doctors appointments. Waiting for assistance as we move through somewhat murky waters, still somewhat unsure of where this journey will end up.


About mariner2mother

I'm a mother of a creative 16 year old son, and a former merchant ship's deck officer. To feed my creative side I take photos. I am also Reiki attuned and am a student of Energy Healing, having used several healing modalities to work on myself and my family. Our most recent adventure has me homeschooling my teenager and going through a very challenging spontaneous Kundalini Awakening.
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8 Responses to Time To Tack

  1. The B Side says:

    Best of luck to you both.

  2. John says:

    I remember guided meditation with a very nice doctor when i was a kid helped a lot and even healed some of the “ocd” anxiety that was happening at the time. But we didnt have it stuctured into my life and eventually fell out of practice for the enticements of media and societal pressures etcetera.

    Paul Chek comes at wellness from an archetypal, homeostatic, self referential standpoint. The idea that your whole being has its own “4 doctors”.. dr quiet, dr diet , dr movement, dr happiness. I wonder what could help your kiddo besides medication. I dont know.

    Also I have heard that certain medications can inhibit magnesium absorption in an already magnesium deficient population among other things but cannot vouch for the accuracy of that statement. Started taking magnesium recently and it restored my ability to have regular bowel movements after a short time and feel calmer.

    In my opinion (but i’m not a parent so i’m way out of line.. i only speak because i hated the idea of medication and being put on it for anxiety, depression etc as if there was something wrong with me only..have since realized psychiatry’s one sided “cause of illness” ie :”genetic predispotioning” to completely ignore context and environment..) ,kids need a more trusting environment that recognizes their inherent brilliance and creativity and ability for ‘self representation” not to be kept from making ‘mistakes’ (or hiccups as i call them)either….but it’s so hard when you cannot find one to put them in that’s affordable or geographically available and when they are already reacting to a sick society. Money has people matrixed but we are finding the way one way or another.

    So much good luck to all of you.

    • I appreciate your comment and am in complete agreement about looking at a person from beyond the physical, not just looking at symptoms as things that need to be fixed. My own journey has taken me into the world of healing over the past seven years, and my own progress has been nothing short of amazing. And I have had a variety of different healers work on my son over the past seven years as well. I use a blend of healing and western medicine, and have exhausted every option (the 4 doctors you mention, and then some) to help my son not succumb to panic attacks almost every day (that my son is willing to try). The list is long. My own mother was mentally ill and knew nothing about healing work. Without medication, her life had many bouts of hell and she was abusive toward me. With medication, it allowed her to live a much fuller life. I don’t know what my son’s pre-birth plans are with regards to his brain chemistry, but it’s pretty obvious that he chose a body that would give him a cornucopia of challenges. My hope is to help his anxiety and panic attacks subside just enough so he can work with my hypnotherapist again. (She’s amazing). And yes, he and I both take magnesium daily.

  3. bethanyk says:

    You and I are going through the same thing

    • Hugs! One of the things I’ve learned over the past few years, is that only the baddest, toughest, most daring and courageous souls take on really challenging lives. You, my dear, are badass!

  4. Nice post, Susan. Good luck with the doctors and medication. Bob

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