For the past five Christmases, I’ve been deep in a process of inner change that’s challenged me like nothing else. Granted, a Kundalini awakening stirs and shakes up a person’s life, but I never knew the initial phase that’s the most challenging would last this long. All that said, the process has evolved and for the first time in a very long time, I’m looking forward to Christmas.
Little Man set the tree up with lights, and when Daddy came home we all decorated. The stockings were hung by the chimney with care, but because we use a wood stove insert, when temps dipped down to freezing I moved them and fired up the stove. When the big guy in the red suit comes, they’ll be placed on the hearth.
My sweetie picked up some festive poinsettia plants and they’re decorating the living and dining areas. And I took a day recently to write out Christmas cards.
Last year when I had so little energy that the thought of decorating the house was a bit too much, I bought a few strands of battery-operated twinkle lights that are adorning the mantle and are lighting up a large, hollow, glass-paneled star sitting on my coffee table. One designed to have a candle hanging inside.
My Christmas shopping is done, as is most of the wrapping. And as I’m writing this, it’s suddenly snowing. This time of year in the Pacific Northwest our temperatures range from just below freezing to just above, giving us anything from light drizzle and snow on overcast days to crisp, cold weather when the skies are clear. Today’s snow is a passing shower that may come back later as drizzle.
One of my favorite things to do on a Sunday morning is to get quiet, sit at my writing table next to our picture window, and listen to inspirational music. It’s my meditation and my church. There’s a fire in the wood stove, lights on the Christmas tree, music from Celtic Christmas II playing, and a few flakes falling.
The view out the window lets me see eagles flying by and alighting in trees overlooking our river. And this winter we’ve been pleasantly surprised by an eagle’s nest being built in our local eagle tree. So exciting!
One of the more challenging features of my awakening process has been living with what feels somewhat and looks like depression and chronic fatigue syndrome, yet aren’t. It’s hard to describe. But when I create an energetic shift, my entire energy field (mind, body, spirit) changes. And for some reason, I’ve been having trouble fully integrating these shifts for the past few years leaving me often tired, achy, and foggy-headed.
There’s been gradual overall progress, but I’m still mired in the muck more than I’d like to be. To that end, I recently met with a talented intuitive who I believe can help me get back on a more even keel. She’s not only a talented healer but also uses a style of hypnosis I’ve been thinking about trying called Beyond Quantum Healing (BQH). It didn’t take long for her to see that BQH could help me, and for me to know that I wanted to have a session with her. So one’s been booked for early in the New Year.
This should help me become fully integrated so I feel like myself again. What a great way to start 2023!
In the meanwhile, life goes on. A bit subdued due to my current condition, but feeling ever so hopeful! My wish this holiday season to you and yours is peace and happiness.
Merry Christmas and happy holidays.