War

When I was very young I had gut trouble from time to time. It felt like there was a war going on inside me. I can still remember sitting in pain, wishing it away time and time again. And eventually, things inside would shift and the pain would subside.

There was a war of sorts going on. Parts of my body were contracting painfully under pressure. I’m not sure how much of it was caused by things I ate and how much was me – empathically embodying conflict happening around me. I’ve always been keenly attuned to emotions around me, feeling my way through life. And there was a bit of conflict in my home growing up.

I’ve learned that conflict doesn’t have to be life-threatening all the time to affect a person deeply. A few deep jabs here and there. Not being respected, revered, or honored, but being bullied, taken advantage of, and outright abused takes a toll.

Thankfully, healing has made all the difference in my life.

With the recent outbreak of war on the other side of the world, I’ve been remembering healing sessions when diving into things like digestive difficulties and an unhappy gallbladder a few years ago took me into past lives.

I saw myself lying on the battlefield with a spear piercing my right abdomen. The wound eventually became septic as it slowly and painfully took my life. As I looked at my male body to get a sense of the time period, images flashed between a body clothed in animal skins and a body covered with pieces of armor. I’ve died on the battlefield in at least a few other lifetimes, and possibly several.

As I lay dying I remember being angry about dying for a cause I didn’t believe in. Having to fight for a leader I didn’t believe in. It felt like I was either conscripted or forced into fighting. The teaching that day was about authenticity: being authentic to myself. It was about healing lifetimes when I wasn’t able to be true to myself.

We live with the effects of war carried forward by our soul, resonating in our DNA. We recreate it within our bodies and externally in the world. And the only way to stop it is to heal.

Will there be a time when all wars will end and people will peacefully coexist? I truly don’t know. As long as we’re a playground for soul growth, all this war and conflict serves a purpose. But I believe we’re ascending and gradually evolving.

However, right here, right now, I’m sending the energy of love out to the world, while continuing to do what I can do to heal myself.

About mariner2mother

I'm a mother of a creative 19 year old son, a former merchant ship's deck officer, and a wife. To feed my creative side I take photos. I am also Reiki attuned and am a student of Energy Healing, having used several healing modalities to work on myself and my family. My most recent adventure has me navigating a very challenging Kundalini Awakening.
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12 Responses to War

  1. Yes it does all have a purpose dear lady…but…I’ll settle for an argument over just about anything than the megalomania that affects so many innocent lives over there now. And yes, I know there is generational ‘things’ that need to happen too…but nuclear. No one learns anything if your obliterated…but then again, maybe its for those that are left. But like most wars, they are forgotten in a generation or two. I think something needs to be invented so that when the urge comes upon someone an alarm can go off and we can lock them away with counseling for a while ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

    • Thanks for chiming in. I love the idea of an alarm going off and locking people away with counseling. I grew up with the threat of nuclear annihilation and find it fascinating that now, when we have the technology, I’ve discovered through several trusted intuitives that there are beings beyond us here on Earth that have and will continue to intervene so we don’t destroy our planet. And hopefully we’re maturing enough that we’ll find more and more balance.

  2. Dwight Hyde says:

    Thank you for sending the energy of love out to the world❤️🤗

  3. Becoming Shakti says:

    Same here. Bad tummy aches. Now I have a benign cyst on my gallbladder but it sheds from time to time and the pain is excruciating. Nothing to do for it, but I believe it’s related to the psychic cords I still have with him. Your insight and journey is amazing.

    • Thanks so much for chiming in. I know the pain of cysts and am so sorry when yours acts up. I don’t know if you’re into doing past life regression, but it could be helpful in healing the cyst and dissolving energetic cords. Just a thought.

      • Becoming Shakti says:

        I have not done that, I don’t know anyone personally that I’ve connected with. There was a shamanic practitioner that helped me a lot, but she has taken a different life path and doesn’t do that anymore.

        • Check out the Michael Newton Institute and see if it resonates. I read his books way back when. Also Dolores Cannon and her QHHT hypnosis. They’re both gone now, but train people for past life regression and between lives regression. Both very powerful healing.

  4. Sending love into the world while doing what you can to heal yourself sounds like the beginning of peaceful coexistence, Susan. Here’s to an increasingly peaceful world. Bob

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