A Sad Moment

Today I filled out the paperwork to renew my ship’s officer license for concurrency only. This will invalidate the license. It will lie fallow, unusable. No one will refer to me again as Mate, or Captain. Why am I doing this? I don’t have any seatime; I haven’t worked on the water since 2002. I could take an open book test in place of submitting seatime, but I don’t see myself working on the water in the next decade, or possibly, ever again. Also, there is the physical exam that I wouldn’t pass right now because of a bad back.

It is tempting to jump through all the hoops and pay all the fees, just to keep this piece of paper valid. But other than my ego, what for? The one comfort is that the license can be reactivated by taking a (huge) test, paying fees, and jumping through a few more hoops, if I so choose, down the road.

About mariner2mother

I'm a mother of a creative 19 year old son, a former merchant ship's deck officer, and a wife. To feed my creative side I take photos. I am also Reiki attuned and am a student of Energy Healing, having used several healing modalities to work on myself and my family. My most recent adventure has me navigating a very challenging Kundalini Awakening.
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