A Shaft of Light

Just a quick update today, shortly before our school year begins next week. My teenage son, Little Man, who lives with a number of life challenges, has been doing a medication trial for crippling anxiety for the past several months. The anxiety wasn’t always crippling, but became so a few months after he turned 13. Something about puberty and middle school amped up his anxiety to the point that he completely melted down and I had to take him out of school.

After making a few different moves, including doing a year of unschooling and looking into naturopathic, holistic, and energetic healing, last year it became obvious that my son really needed help in the form of medication. One of the biggest reasons I put off looking into pharmaceuticals, was I know the power of energy healing. And I hoped we could find something else to help my son that he could use on an as needed basis, that was short acting, like taking CBD oil (that helps many people who live with anxiety).

Plus, because my own mother depended on medication to keep her mental status on a somewhat even keel (she was bipolar), I know that as people age, a medication that worked for them for years, often times eventually no longer works. And it scares me as a parent to think about my son’s mental health being dependent upon medication, and the thought of him not able to find one that works. Or his not being able to afford what works (as happens with far too many people).

That said, right here and right now, my son needs medication. And after spending the past several months trying a few different ones, it looks like the one he’s taking is just beginning to show progress. FINALLY!!

copyrighted photo of the backstays of the sun

Does he still have anxiety? Yes. Does he still panic and have his brain melt when it comes to school work? I don’t know yet. We’ve taken the month of August completely off from school (to give us both a break).

But he’s beginning to show the first signs of progress in far too long. He’s doing therapy and will continue to do therapy. And over the next few months, we’ll increase his dose to find the best level for him.

The center we’ve been working with addresses more than only mental health issues in kids and adolescents: they do educational testing and connect people with tutors as well. As much as Little Man had educational testing a number of years ago, and saw a tutor, now that he’ll be on medication to control anxiety, we’ll be revisiting things like tutoring.

When I mentioned to his therapist that Little Man had already done tutoring and it ended after about five months because of anxiety, she asked if he’d been tutored alone or with other kids. Apparently, it could be helpful for Little Man to be tutored with another student. So the spotlight isn’t always on him, and so the students can help each other from time to time (which is a great confidence booster). Plus, now that his brain is being helped by a medication, it should make a big difference as well.

Light is beginning to shine back into our lives, even if it’s just a shaft. That’s all it takes. Just an opening to let it in.

About mariner2mother

I'm a mother of a creative 19 year old son, a former merchant ship's deck officer, and a wife. To feed my creative side I take photos. I am also Reiki attuned and am a student of Energy Healing, having used several healing modalities to work on myself and my family. My most recent adventure has me navigating a very challenging Kundalini Awakening.
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17 Responses to A Shaft of Light

  1. janonlife says:

    That is good to hear. I really hope the medication will work for him and allow him to grow and thrive in this next phase of his journey. I totally understand your reservations about using meds. One of my own sons has recently had to make a similar choice and opted to see if the medication will allow him to access the help and strategies he needs to overcome his anxiety and depression.
    Sending all good wishes to you and Little Man. Hope the tutoring works out, too.

  2. emjayandthem says:

    “Light is beginning to shine back into our lives, even if it’s just a shaft.” — Hallelujah in deed!! There is no scarier feeling than your child being ill ~ that you are seeing some growth and positive reaction to the new treatment is definitely cause for celebration!!
    Bests, MJ

  3. TexasVelvet says:

    Glad you’re finding something that is helping!!

  4. YES!!!So happy to hear it.

    • Thanks Darla. The past few years have been quite a time. And there’s very likely another class of medication that can help him with his ADHD; one we didn’t try back in elementary school. (We only tried stimulant meds, no nonstimulant ones). As much as I’m all about healing, it’s painfully obvious that my kiddo will greatly benefit from meds – and I’m very ok with it (finally). That said, I’m still hoping he’ll have a few sessions with my hypnotherapist to help heal the trauma of school that’s become wired into his system. When the time is right.

  5. The Hook says:

    This is amazing news!
    All the best to you and yours, old friend.

  6. Good luck with the meds, Susan.

  7. candidkay says:

    Oh, I’m cheering from afar! I love the positive forward movement after so much back and forth–I know that’s hard. Does your son like dogs? I’ve been watching the therapy dogs here do so much good for kids with anxiety at the library . . .

    • Thanks so much. For years I thought he would really benefit from having a therapy dog, but I don’t have the energy to have a dog. I know my husband well enough to know I would do 99% of the work of having any pet. Plus, when my son was little, he had a bad scare from a dog, so he was terrified of them until he was about 7 or 8. We have guinea pigs. And there were many days when my son would sit and hold his little piggie, calming down.

  8. Jami Carder says:

    Hooray! So uplifting to catch a glimpse of the light at the end of the tunnel. Praying for you💕

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