Surrender and Acceptance

For the past few weeks, I’d been sitting on a cloud of hope. Hope that working with a talented healer I was guided to would help me create the inner and outer coherence that’s been missing from my life for the past few years, except in sporadic moments and a few days last spring. It buoyed me and perked me up. The hope.

And then I had the session: BQH (beyond quantum hypnosis). Because I haven’t had much energy and sometimes healing can be tiring, I booked the shorter version of this type of hypnosis session, approximately three hours. Not all the time is designed to be spent in hypnosis, because these sessions are often a one-off. Often times used with people who’ve never experienced hypnosis before, or who’ve maybe had one session prior. We began with a chat about the intention for the session, focusing on a few things I wanted to work on, and after a quick break, the practitioner did some energy healing work and then guided me into the hypnotic trance.

This sort of hypnosis is based on the work of hypnotist Dolores Cannon and differs from other forms of hypnosis by putting a person in the deepest state of hypnosis, somnambulism, and calling forth the High Self, or as Dolores called it, the SC (subconscious). The session is designed to have a person go into the most relevant past life pertaining to some issue in their life they want to work on. And the High Self comes in to give the higher, spiritual, perspective of things.

This is a little bit like the soul-directed hypnosis I was introduced to almost a decade ago, but different. The soul-directed hypnosis that was the first really effective treatment I ever used kept me in a lighter state of hypnosis, beginning by focusing on things going on in my life in the here and now, and then regressing into the past. Most of the early sessions stayed within my early life, and within the session, younger parts of myself would be guided to have conversations with my wise adult self. I suppose that the wise adult self is part of the Higher Self, but that wasn’t the language used.

As I healed things from childhood, sometimes I’d end up spontaneously regressing to a past life, but this wasn’t the focus of my earlier work. Yes, there are often connections between this lifetime and past lives, and healing something from a past life can absolutely affect this present life.

My primary goals for having the BQH hypnosis session were to help me feel more present and together on a full-time basis, and to create healing around a sore elbow that’s been sore for several months now.

The practitioner I worked with has experience doing these sorts of sessions, is a lifelong, natural-born intuitive, and was wonderful. Despite all that, and despite having some really cool things come forward in the session, I’m still not myself. I still feel like I’m not all here, and my sore elbow is still sore.

Some of the amazing things I experienced were connecting into pain and sorrow relating to seeing my home planet explode, like when Princess Leia in Star Wars sees Alderaan decimated. It was truly surprising. I’d say it was shocking except that the pain was transmuted – so no more shock. Apparently, with people who self-identify as Starseeds, seeing our home planet explode isn’t uncommon.

I was also connected to members of my star family who are helping broaden my heart connection to them and to Source. Yes, angels and spirit guides aren’t the only ones who help us connect with Source and healing energies.

While the day after the healing session was very difficult in a lot of ways because I was still processing a lot of pain and sorrow and I’d built up a lot of hope that this session would help me feel “normal” again only to be let down, as time passes and I’m able to move into surrender, balance begins to return, such as it is.

I’m accepting that I don’t feel like myself and may not feel like myself for a while. Truthfully, I can’t put a timeline on it because the thought of feeling out of sorts, this out of sorts, for months or years is too much to bear at the moment. Plus, whenever I’ve asked my Higher Self about this, I’m assured it’s temporary and won’t be forever.

I think the big lessons lately are about surrendering, acceptance, and persistence. If nothing else, I tend to be persistent.


About mariner2mother

I'm a mother of a creative 20 year old son, a former merchant ship's deck officer, and a wife. To feed my creative side I take photos. I am also Reiki attuned and am a student of Energy Healing, having used several healing modalities to work on myself and my family. My most recent adventure has me navigating a very challenging Kundalini Awakening.
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2 Responses to Surrender and Acceptance

  1. Carol anne says:

    Hi! I’m sorry you still don’t feel like yourself, but I am glad the session was good, and you took a lot away from it! X

    • Thank you. I understand it’s part of the process that for whatever reason is appropriate for me to go through for now. And with each and every healing session and spontaneous Aha Moment I’m being brought back to feeling more and more like myself.

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